January 5th, 2002

spikey eye bw

An End

Most of the people reading this will have known me for a good while and know that Raz and I have been together for approximately six years and perhaps it seemed like we always would be. Sometimes I thought that, but as time went on I started to wonder more. Late last year it stopped seeming that way.

Today, after a lot of thought and a lot of putting it off, I ended our relationship because for me it just wasn't working. When we are apart I don't miss him. When we are together, I often feel crowded and tied down. Everything had become mundane. Perhaps we got too comfortable, perhaps we didn't talk enough. I'm not completely sure where the problems lay.

I didn't want to hurt Raz. I'm sorry I did, but we WILL stay friends and I feel like a weight has been lifted. The question is: where and what now?